I am not sure if I told you this when I was there for my facial feminization surgery in 2010 – but I wanted to take this time now to let you know how much you changed my life. Before my surgery, I was really “alive” only one (maybe two) days, a week. The rest of the time I wouldn’t call it living, rather maybe just “waiting”. Allow me to explain…….
I realized I was Transgender about 15-ish years ago. I know it sounds like a cliché, but I always knew there was something different about me. I just didn’t know there was a name for it. The usual Halloween dress-up and occasional weekend outing as a woman wasn’t enough anymore. Of course I tried to purge this behavior every chance I got, but it was a losing fight as the urge grew stronger and stronger. I began to talk to a professional and she helped realize what was happening.
Once I finally did accept who I really was, I came up with a plan on how to be a girl without anyone the wiser. I thought I had it all figured out – boy! (no pun intended) was I wrong!
At first I tried feminizing as best I could without any surgery – but soon learned quickly you can only go so far with lipstick and bottle of foundation. Yes, there are some people out there that can change from masculine to feminine with a stroke of eyeliner, and God bless them – but unfortunately, I was not one of them.
It took me days/weeks of preparation (waxing, plucking, wigs, makeup studios, etc.) to become a girl for a Saturday, maybe stretching it into a Sunday if my beard was cooperating that weekend. And because of work, the weekday was totally out of the question. I found trying to have a foot in each world (man during the week – woman on the weekend) was becoming exhausting, physically, as well as mentally. During the week, co-workers stared curiously at my thin, overly groomed eyebrows, and on the weekends, my adams apple, not my new dress, got the same attention.
Fast-forward to 2009 – I made my first trip to California to meet you and your staff.
What I really liked about you right off was simply the time you spent with me – You explained everything in terms in which I could relate, and most of all you gave me the breathing room to figure it all out. So many doctors these days go for the hard sell, almost like used car salesman with a scalpel – but you gave me all the time (and information) I needed to make a decision that was right for me. Pre and Post-Op, you and your team were consummate professionals.
I no longer have to prepare five days to “live” for only one. All the times I thought I was fooling family, friends, co-workers, living that double life – I was really only fooling myself. Life is hard enough living it as one person – trying to live it as two, is just plain crazy!
Thanks to your help, I now live as a full time, very happy, woman (including WEEKENDS).